Thoughts on Parenting
Maybe since I'm a mom, I often don't feel like I'm the fun one. Dads are the wild and goofy ones who wrestle and tickle and chase. Do any of you mamas ever feel like that?
I quit my job almost three years ago to stay home with the girls. I love my time with them, really do love it. But I still (*maybe*) want to open up the front door and scream a little when 4:00 hits. Days go by and I swear all I've done is check off the basic necessities like getting dressed, getting people food, potty breaks, cleaning up, a little discipline, a craft or two, and just the everyday parent stuff. The other day I stopped and thought about it and realized, geez it's been a while since I did something really fun with my girls. It's embarassing to say! It's been on my mind often these days...as I'm realizing how fast time is flying. I better make sure I'm taking time for the silly, fun moments that will fill up their memory banks - and mine, too.
I can't help but think of this when I look at these pictures of Ella and I together in Palm Springs. No, I do not like yellow, gooey, stinky aloe plant smeared all over my face after I've just had a shower. But Ella really wanted to give me a "facial". So in this moment with Ella in the desert, when she had a fresh oozing aloe plant about two inches from my face, I almost said, no ella, I really don't want you to smear aloe all over my face. But I stopped myself. Indulge her little playful dreams, be silly with her, for she won't be this carefree, imaginative, and bright-eyed forever. I don't want the girls to just remember me as the mom who took them to school, made their lunches, and gave them baths. I really hope they also remember me getting a little dirty, building sandcastles with them, flour fights while baking cookies, going to see movies (even when I hate sitting through kids movies), playing with play-doh (totally despise the mess), and constructing a ridiculous doll house out of cardboard boxes.
I love time with my kiddos, but it's not always organic for me to just sit down and play. I'm reminding myself to do it more. I'm forcing myself to do these things my girls ask me to, when it's so easy to say no. Like letting Ella smear aloe on my face when that really sounds kinda nasty. Because - soon she will be grown up and the opportunities will be gone. (sniff sniff!)